10th November.

The day that i will never forget but wish had never happened.

On 10th November 2012 I lost someone that meant a lot to me. He was always there to pick me up, make me smile, teach me new things, take me on holiday and make me laugh.

That person is: Francis Douglas Guy

He’s my Grandad, Whenever he walked into a room it seem to brighten up, Whenever i was down he would always make me laugh. He used to sit me on a knee and pretend i was riding a horse. He used to make silly noises that sounded like a duck. No matter how ill he was i loved him to pieces. Him and my Nan made me realise how truly lucky i am to have them in my life. Even though he’s gone, i will always think of him being here with us, looking down on us. I will make sure my children are aware of their great grandad, show pictures of him and tell them the memories i have with him.

Happy Father Day Grandad. I Love You So Much, The pain i have everyday knowing i wont see your smile, hear your laugh or just get a hug hurts more and more each day. It’s beginning to become harder to cope.

I Love You.

I’ve noticed that a lot of people and i mean A LOT will boast about the fact they have Iphones. No I’m not jealous it just annoys me how you think you’re something special because you think you have an iPhone. I mean it’s a phone, get over it, it doesnt make you a celebrity, it doesnt make you special, boasting about it makes you look like a complete dipstick if im honest with ya.

Rant over.

Thanks to idiotic people who was in my life I’m not allowed to mourn the loss of a friend. Her 20th Birthday just passed and yet because of rumours which i know my friend would be looking down and know for sure is lies i could only wish her happy birthday by saying it in my room as if she was listening. This girl was so amazing and brave, the jokes i shared with her at school, she good times and the bad times, seeing her in the same place at break and bumping into her outisde of school. The girl was truely amazing and to everyone she knew was a wonderful friend.

Because of certain people who say i always bring her up in arguments and wish cancer on their mothers which i dont i am hated. No one will believe me that i never said those things.

I believe that when a person passes on they look over their friends and family, she would know i never said any of those things and if i hadve said them i wouldve admitted it because i know my friend would know the truth.

She will always be missed, she will always be loved, always amazing and always the girl that lit up the room when she walked in. R.I.P Darling, Never going to forget our good times in school and outside of school, Thanks for being such an amazing friend.

Since i posted a blog about me knowing who the person is with the fake ask.fm acc i havent had any more of them. But i just want to say if theres anything you want to ask me you don’t have to make fake acc’s up. If you act like a mature adult and talk then ill do the same back. I made this blog and posted about bullying experiences because my friend said i could help others who suffer bullying and give them advice.

I never named or shamed, i stayed anonymous.

But if there is anyone who would like any advice on bullying or need someone to talk to email me:

missnervous2013@gmail.com

So, I have ask.fm and in the space of a month i’ve had 2 random users that have asked me questions about my bullying and that have said they are going to post stuff from my old blog and send it to my parents. I know who has made these accounts because not long after they have asked me questions they deactivate the account, and because this person has the need to check everything i do and seems to want to send stuff to my parents which they can gladly do, if you read this make another fake user on ask.fm and i will send you the link to my Dad’s facebook. If you are going to fake an account don’t make it so obvious it’s you.

I know you got contacted by the police when i got them involved in March and they said they had told you to not contact me ever again. You are going against that and if you carry on i will contact them again and I will ask for them to take it further this time.

So Jenny Samuels/Crystal Duke (not revealling real identitiy on here but they know who they are) just give up because you aren’t affecting my life, you aren’t affecting my relationship. You’re giving me and my husband something to laugh about because we seem to be more important than your own life. We have lived our lives not worrying about you, we don’t want anything to do with you. You’re 20 years old so please act your age.